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In the anime, characters often intentionally subject themselves to psychological torment or sensory overload to "feel alive" within a cold, automated world. The phrase "smasochist lain" taps directly into this concept—representing a state where an individual derives a twisted form of satisfaction or enlightenment from digital alienation and ego death. pain and pleasure v03 smasochist lain exclusive
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